long time no post - in a way its a kinda good thing seeing as most of the ppl who did read my blog wont know i've updated haha... yet im writting this i guess to vent or coz its kinda therapeutic.

i just dl a song by imogen heap - missing you. its the most ugly sounding song (tho its now growing on me) yet it totally depicts how i feel atm, my thoughts and actions...i reckon its abt 90% accurate.


Oh, Ive been longing for this as long as I can remember
For something like this to go my way
And it always felt so right
And then you take it all away

Tell me how I'm missing you, yeah, like that again
I'm still sleeping, missing you, yeah, early in the pouring rain
I'm still dreaming, missing you, yeah, it's our first together
You see I thought I'd found the love I'd have forever

Now I'm hiding myself behind this shattered veil
And I know it's only me to blame
And I'm swimming through this ocean of grief
And I'm sailing up your way

Tell me how I'm missing you, yeah, like that again
I'm still sleeping, missing you, yeah, early in the pouring rain
I'm still dreaming, missing you, yeah, it's our first together
You see I thought I'd found the love I'd have forever

(Missing you, missing you, missing you) x3

And everything in this house is something of you
I can't escape even though I try
Photographs of memories
I never knew I had so many tears to cry

And I...yeah, die (die, die, die)
I never knew I had so many tears to cry

Tell me how I'm missing you, yeah, like that again
I'm still sleeping, missing you, yeah, early in the pouring rain
I'm still dreaming, missing you, yeah, it's our first together
You see I thought I'd found the love I'd have forever

relizing how emo this will look the next time i read it, i just feel compelled to write it down ne way.











~ a sentimental fool i am - this dance, i wish could last forever...